Noise
I once attended a stand-up show in Amsterdam,
and not speaking a word of Dutch I just laughed
along with the crowd, letting myself get caught
up with the noise. It’s the same logic of applause
and food fights. I can’t think about the bubonic
plague without getting anxious. When I watch
Planet Earth, I root for both prey and predator.
The border between humor and disgust blurs
neatly so it’s often hard to say. I was driving
home from the grocery store last week
and saw that my neighbor had painted and hung
a new sign on his shed: THEEVES WILL BE SHOT
and Kate asked, Who’s Theeves? In high school
a boy did a Gallagher impression after prom,
smashing watermelons on stage with a hammer,
his fake mustache falling off mid-swing,
and then two weeks later his parents received a bill
for $30,000 to replace the pulp-smattered curtain.
Or that time in second grade after we had
just moved when a quiet boy in my class asked
for a ride home. My mother, new to the city,
got lost, and cross-stitched neighborhoods
in the fading light because the boy didn’t know
which was his, and he started crying, and my mother
started to cry too, and we drove until the boy saw
a familiar park, and eventually we found it,
his house, and his mother was on the lawn
with two officers, and she’s crying, too,
and then the drive home after, my mother
whispering Shit, Shit, Shit, and wiping her eyes.