Special K

my nickname in grade school from a boy who

played basketball while I sat on the bench, 

rolled up my socks, my sweatband. 


Made sense: Kieron was weird-in-the-mouth, like a mouth guard.

Wildly specific: the autistic + skinny-fat kid.


Boys are nothing but clever

in their cruelty.


I saw him today, the boy, now a man, 

working the register at Payless.

Was their “going-out-of-business” sale. 


Do they still call you Special K?

His tone asking: do you finally get it? 


I took my sneakers, my new basketball shoes. 

No. No one ever called me that, except you.  


Don’t Forget

that while you stress + sweat 

over deadlines + your writing,

your overbite + poor eyesight,

the Toyota + its upkeep,

the way others look at you + you

wonder if it’s pity or irritation,

revulsion or raw-sugar love, the 

bees

are doing just fine—

the workers forage the field to

bejewel 

their black socks in clover

pollen, + the queen

bedazzles

other drones back

home to the

beehive

after her maiden flight

beguiling

flush of pheromones—from there,

spring through autumn, the  

bees

in their white box pulse

louder than sirens, louder

than bells, a

behemoth

of bodies + wings + mouths

grooming the queen,

saliva-sewing curtains of

bee-comb,

their kind

becoming

more of a

bewildering

number, for that is their

nature, their

behavior,

+ all of it was done

without a single thought

or care of you.

Jacob’s Cave

Versailles, Missouri


No one [really] cares for the cave—


[rock ribcage | bat shrine | the theater-glare of tour guides 

from floodlights close to campfire-ghost-stories] 


We want the swap meet up the road, the sales, the mile [+ more] of booths—


[barbie dolls | rollerblades | sunglasses | DVDs

of Bruce Willis movies | a tennis racket |

an empty gas can | wind chimes | tighty-whities |

jars of salsa from the Mennonites |

char-black skillets | a Crown Royale pouch 

of pyrite] 


We could buy + sell anything, really—


But [really] the only table we barrel for is the one bone-piled with guns—


rifles + pistols +

revolvers + shotguns +

38 specials + assaults +

semi-automatics +

flintlocks +

muskets—

all of which do not include a box of bullets

or any paperwork