Busted Pandemic Sonnet for My Dead Dad 

You taught me how to touch you like a house

of cards. Focus my breath away from the tilt 


of your neck. They painted the coils of a ram’s horns tar heel blue 

for that last football game we saw. The fuzzy picture dying 


to fade away. The way you hit the hard side of our t.v. 

made me flinch. But it worked, didn’t it? That “love 


tap.” You saved every receipt. Desk drawers stuffed with evidence 

of all you spent on razor blades never used. I barely saw your hair 


under that Broncos cap, until you asked me

to cut it all off. Leave the beard, you told me, rusted clippers humming 


too close to your cheek. I bought another box

of 50 masks today, tar heel blue. (You’ve missed so much


bullshit). Men on ESPN say we shouldn’t wear them; cosmetic as painting that alpha

-keratin we can’t shed. Cheers, to you, Dad, for not covering your hairy mouth 


when I kissed you goodbye.